Once a Month

October. What a full month of sadness and change.

The main event of the month was one of heartache and painful goodbyes without the hellos. Our dear brother and his wife lost their baby at birth on 10/9/12. We went on yet another sad long road trip to Montana to support family and share in their grief. (The last trip being in March for a cousin's funeral.)

The service was beautiful and heart wrenching. I don't think I've ever actually felt my heart break as it did during that service. Endless tears and hugs were the only thing we could offer the young grieving parents. Baby Jeffrey was beautiful. The most beautiful precious angel baby I've ever seen.

My birthday dawned bright and early in Idaho where we were staying. I was sung to at breakfast by all the extended family there. Mr. Llama also got me some scrumptious chocolates and drove us home safe and sound. It almost feels like I didn't have a birthday this year. Weird, but understandable under the circumstances.

Two days after we arrived home from our long trip, Mr. Llama started his new job a couple states over. Yes, States. We are blessed enough to have found a wonderful nanny for Miss KB while I am working. It's a major change in KB's schedule and Mr. Llamas... not so much in mine. I still go to work every day. The major difference being that I'm single parenting it at home now. I admire the full time single parents. It's hard work! I'm still figuring out when I'm supposed to do all the laundry and shopping. AGH. The nice part is Mr. Llamas job is temporary. He returns home to us full time by the end of the year! We are excited to be a together family again and anxiously await his return.